duty

down the stairs, open the door. in the dark without my eyes adjusting to the dark, i find #2 ( my youngest, a boy not a girl, rampage). pick him up in my arms from his crib after finding his binky. carry him over to our room and put him into the bed next to his mother. change a huge pee diaper, my wife wakes up enough to distract #2 so he doesn't roll over while i change his diaper. bring it upstairs, throw it away and sit down back at the glowing computer screen. the ticking clock is reminding me that me and both boys will be up early tomorrow, so i can't do this forever, even though i could sit here all night long and type. i have a wonderful wife and two great kids. is there anything else a guy could wish for?

how are you?

life is an emotional roller coaster. everyone pretty much knows this, you have your ups and downs and that is just the way things go. the hard part is when your roller coaster is going up and down really fast. mood swings are surprisingly tiresome and irritating. how do you avoid them, what are the catalysts? i don't think i am looking for advice, i just want to shake some dust out of my head.

i need to go to sleep, but something is keeping up, maybe it is a childish need to do something other than what i should do. i should have went to sleep hours ago, but instead i find myself wandering around some of my favorite web sites wasting time. during this time the moon has moved from the left side of the window way over on the right side. not quite full, but definitely pretty.

i wrote an e-mail to a friend a few hours ago. i honestly hope it doesn't ruin his day. my youngest is waking up.. duty calls.. 01:09

"freedom is just another word ...

for nothing left to lose" Kris Kristofferson from Me & Bobby McGee, yes it is Kris that wrote that one not Janis.. oh well now you know. Anyway.

Life may seem to have you in a rut, not sure why you are doing all the things you are doing everyday. STOP. Think about what you are doing instead of doing it on automatic. Start appreciating all the good things in your life. Every minute you are sitting there feeling sorry for yourself is a minute that you just wasted. Don't get me wrong, don't think for a second that I haven't been throwing some major personal pity parties. I have every right to, but I am wasting my precious life every minute I mope around feeling sorry for myself. If I can go around being happy, so can you, not because I am stronger or smarter or bought the miracle cure on the tvshop, more for the fact that I am no better than you. Hell you would tell me that yourself after a couple of beers.

Look around you at all the things tying you down. Your family, friends, good habits, hobbies and start appreciating them.

If you think this was directed at you, then maybe it was, but don't be surprised or bruise your ego if I wrote it for someone else. Only I know.

peace, love and very unmanly hugs to all of you out there today and tonight.

just a little pause, now I am back from outerspace..

I haven't written for a while, I got a little down there and didn't want to spread any negative vibes. Right now it is about 50/50. I want to go home and visit my family. I have my closest and dearest here don't get me wrong, but sometimes you just need to get back and see your extended family. Plus the weather here has been a little sucky, I want sunshine...

Braindust

I go on and on, at least in my head, about perspective. Life perspective and individual truth is something that I am working on, once again in my head, and now here. Part of that Life perspective is where you grew up and your family and old friends. No matter how long you have been away or how far, or how little you think you have in common, you should go back from time to time. It helps with the life perspective, helps you with your choices, because everytime you go back you are different from last time you were there, and all those old places and people, friends and family you knew, know. They will be different too, because the perspective and the truth has adjusted itself.


Braindust

On other fronts, Dylan is having a hard time with Jonna leaving in the evenings if she is going to go out and do stuff and that is hard on her. One of many phases to come. Charlie is falling a lot now a days, maybe he is in a growing spurt and has a hard time with balance who knows, but he does good for a kid who has been walking since 9 months.

sorry

wife came home with a little correction for my math, or that I should be clear about something, I am not the only one who cleans up around here, She helps out sometimes too :)

cute and yet not.

I make a quick lunch and feed him and then he helps me clean up the table. "There you go pops, all done. See nothing left on the table." Anytime you read, fed the kids, as a thing done during the day, think about these images. I do, everyday 3 times a day, 7 days a week. There are a lot of things with the kids I love, and a couple that just drive me up the wall..





30 seconds in the micro, 10 minutes of play/eat, 20 minutes of cleaning. :)

the quick addiction

how can I get addicted to something like writting a blog so quickly, maybe it is because I am screaming for therapy somewhere in my tortured soul, or maybe I am just a flasher having a good time with out running the risk of getting arrested.

We went to ikea tonight, the family place. The kids had fun, we spent money, and I didn't have to screw anything together you can't really beat that can you.

I am tired and need sleep, but it seems that I needed a little fix first.. what can you say except... aaahhhh...

crossposting

I don't know if this illegal in the blog world, I might be breaking some unwritten or even written rule for all I know. I like the editor better here at blogspot compared to myspace mostly for the abc(checkmark) button that lets me do a spell check. So here is the post that I just put on MySpAcE just to check things out a bit.. any opinions?

good night
Today was a good day. I took a walk with Charlie and some other people that are on paternity leave after we dropped the older kids off at daycare. It was windy but with a distinct feeling of spring. Then we went over to one of the other parents house becuase her son turned 1 to day so it was coffee and cake. You just can't beat coffee and chocolate cake.. After that it was quick trip to "centrum" to get some errands done and then home, so Charlie could sleep. I made dinner already in the afternoon so that once I picked Dylan up at 2 there wouldn't be any stress.

2oclock picked Dylan up and down to the park for playtime, everyone just seemed to be in a good mood today. Lots of fun. After that we went up to our place and was playing outside there. We didn't get in until 20 after 5. Almost 3.5 hours outside, that will put anyone in a good mood..

A quick dinner, spaghetti and meat sauce after Jonna got home and then in the tub with Charlie because that is the only way to get him clean after spaghetti and meat sauce. Then I took of to my course which was a lot of fun tonight, I really enjoy my teacher he different, but really good.

Now after finally getting a picture up on blogspot I am considering a move.. I really need the spell check. I am going to have to see, but if you are reading this and you miss me after a couple of days check our romu42.blogspot.com I might have moved in.. I am not sure, unsure.. oi oi what should I do.. is there anyone out there with an opinion.. I will post this same one on blogspot.. can't someone make this choice for me.. :)

good night.

I am thinking about moving in here instead, right now I have started up at myspace, but they are missing one key ingredient that I need. Spellcheck. Is that reason enough to move... it just might be..

Testing Video...

lets check out google

i have started writing stuff on myspace, you can find it at www.myspace.com/romu42 . I am going to try the google blog also. I am already using every other service through google, so why not be totally assimilated