sunday morning

I was about to write saturday, but I lost my saturday to work. That really sucks. I had to fly down to Gothenburg on Friday and fix some systems. It was necessary, but absolutley no fun. Oh well, got back yesterday at 2o'clock had time for a bite to eat and a coffee and then back to work at 4. I worked until about 7:30 in the evening. I am really brain tired today. The worst part is that it will affect my patience level. I know I will have less patience with the boys today than I should, that is because I am tired from work. Not fair to them or Jonna, but that is the way it is sometimes.

Today is a day for visiting friends. We are already done with breakfast, and will probably be out the door be fore 9.

That is if I can stop surfing myspace, that place is like a drug, I start bouncing profiles and get caught there for a half hour. It is the biggest popularity contest since High School.

I think they should have a myspace theme song contest. The prize can be that they make everyone on myspace your friend and let you view all the private stuff that people have blocked out like Tom can. I wonder how many people don't realize that Tom can see everything on myspace. Gotta take a shower and get out of here.

airport

Now I am sitting at the emptiest airport I have ever been in. No one except me, some guy on the phone and two lost little old ladies, fly on a saturday. These two little old ladies, just keep wondering around and around. I think they want a cup of coffee or tea, but the coffee shop is completely unmanned. I am a little in the mood just to jump back there and make everyone a cup of coffee, but that is probably a terrorist act and I would get thrown into the dungeon. Here we are the 4 of us an no coffee/tea. What is the world coming to.

server hall server hell

I am a sysadmin... I keep server systems running and provide customers with services.. right now, late in the evening I am sitting in a server hall with a noise level of a taxiing 747. For the po-dunk non-travellers in the crowd. That is really loud. I put on my headphones and disappear into www.jerryradio.com which I can warmly recommend. I have a screen next to me with a progress bar.. It is my best friend right now. It is the only indication as to how things are going. I am tired, and my eyes hurt. You know like when you have been driving for a really long time and you want to stop, but just can't stop. Not yet. Almost. Just not yet. I am bitching, I am drinking really bad automat coffee. Good thing I slept in a little this morning. Otherwise I would really be messing things up.

half time report

Everyone is asleep. It is probably wrong to use the idea of everyone for two people, but I just did and there isn't anything anyone can do about it. Charlie, went to sleep at 13:30 and Dylan at 14:00, it is now 14:20, and I have a feeling it is going to be impossible to put them to sleep tonight and impossible to wake them up tomorrow morning. Amazing, the level of stress a nap can cause, so I am not going to stress it, I have been stressing things entirely too much the past year or so, and enough is enough. These things will work themselves out an be a lot less of a problem if I quit worrying about them. I had a conversation with some friends on vacation, can fear and worry be seperate issues? Can you have a fear without worrying about it? I think you can. I think you can have a fear and not worry about it. The not worrying part does not remove the fear, but it does do a good job of making it a low stress point.

more later.

i promise to go to bed earlier

There is a combination in my life, I go to bed later than I should wake up earlier than I want to and spend the day feeling like I would rather be sleeping. This is the way it has been and so shall it be for eternity.

We are back to reality now. Jonna went to work, I am home with the boys today. I will be starting work tomorrow. I don't see any reason to work. I don't have this urge to go to work, I would rather just sit and play guitar. Maybe if I bought a guitar for work and played 5 minutes every hour I would feel better about work.

It was supposed to rain yesterday and didn't, today it is supposed to rain, and I think it will, I have to figure out something to do with the boys today. Otherwise we are going to drive each other nuts.

Maybe tonight, I will go to bed early.

13:00 and I was more awake at 02:00

Jet lag is a pain in the ass, jet lag with kids is worse.. I haven't written that much the past month or so. We are on our last week of vacation after 3 weeks in the states. We got back yesterday and are trying to recover today. It was a long trip and the kids did great yesterday, went to bed at the normal time and everything seemed great, until midnight when they woke up and wanted to get up and play. We "discussed" things for about 3,5 hours. Needless to say today we are a little tired all of us. Now after breakfast it is time for some showers and get outside, it is not raining for the moment, but that is the forecast.